The first goal that I’m going to throw out there is (drumroll, please)….
To be in fitness model shape.
For a little background, I used to be a D-1 college athlete, so that means I was in excellent physical shape. However, after I finished college, I started feeling rebellious. No one was making me get up at 5am to get to the weight room or run hill sprints, so there was no way I was going to continue doing that. I wanted my extra 2 hours of sleep, dangit! Over the past few years in grad school, I’ve become increasingly out of shape – specifically, I’ve managed to gain about 35 lbs in the last 3 years. Honestly, I’m disappointed with myself, and I’m kind of embarrassed. But I do know that how much I weigh or what I look like does NOT reflect on who I am, and it should not affect how I feel about myself. Or my confidence. No matter what the scale says about my weight or % body fat, I am still beautiful, confident, and free.
However, I was entrusted with this body. So far, I’ve been given the tools to keep it healthy, but over the last 3 years, I’ve not been using those tools. It’s time for that to change. I’m stepping out. I’m taking a risk. I’m risking failure at getting fit. I’ve tried to get back “in shape” several times over the past year or so and failed. Well this time, I won’t fail. I’ll succeed. I have the basic tools I need, and I’m learning more every day. I can do this. I will do this. I’m worth this.